3-30-10

Wind is blowing! But! It's not raining!
Work has been slow this week..
I think everyone is getting really to pay their taxes by april 15th
Lord knows I am.
I have come to learn when your self-employed just when you think your starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel.
Uncle Sam steps in wanting his part.Problem is His part was bigger than mine!

I did good on my diet yesterday. Helps when you don't get up till noon than back in bed by 8:30pm
I stayed under 1000 calories.
But, true I have not felt every well at all. My skin is itching.But, no rash around my neck and arms,head everywhere.
I prayed this morning! And again Lord, PLEASE  do not let it be my new bed and sheets! (I haven't paid it off yet!)
Here's a picture of one of my little buddys Braxton. I don't

He is just like his daddy. MEAN!!  But, I love him anyway! :)
Maybe all goes well..I'll see if I can go fishing tomorrow!

03-28-2010

I'm setting here with Marty watching River Monsters...STAY OUT OF THE WATER!

Watched the movie Blind side today. I really liked it. Won't say anything about what happen with her real marriage. EXCEPT: It's not her fault he fooled around.
People just don't know what CONTROL means anymore!
No Self-RESPECT!
If I still loved him and wanted our marriage to work. He would be starting over from the first date again.
Find out how much he really still loves me!.Okay off that subjuct.

Lap band update:
I gained 3 pounds this week.I prayed and spent some time with God. He told me Be accountable for every single calorie!
So I wrote everything down. And I didn't really feel like I ate much till this afternoon.
But I passed a 1000 calories before 2:00 o'clock.By 7:00 pm things crashed and burned.
Talking about SELF-CONTROL! I have too find mine tomorrow!
Start choosing better food too!
Back to work tomorrow!
Just when I was getting caught up on my sleep!
Have a good week. Remember all you have to do is make it till wed. at noon! It's all down hill from there.

03-27-2010

The only thing I finished today...Was a can of chicken noodle soup! HA..

The kids came and spent the afternoon with us.

We watched a strom move in and rain turned to pea size hell. Then it was gone as fast as it came.

Sunshine returned with alot wind and leaves blowing everywhere.

We loved sleeping on our new bed and I didn't get up till after 11:00 am.

Marty got a new toy for his future game room.

The game room right now is on the kitchen table>hehe

He already has the kids playing and they love it.Bryce fell out of the chair cause he was happy he got a cherry! Notice in the picture bubba already has his foot on the table!

I'm wanting to go fishing so bad.

Even if I just catch some perch.I'd be happy!

03-26-2010

THANK GOD TODAY WAS FRIDAY!!!

My butt is dragging. When I got home today my new select comfort bed was on my porch.

I almost have it put together. And all goes well ,I'm sleeping in tomrrow!

Lap-band update: Took me to Wed. night to get where I could eat solids after sundays Chicken and dumpling screw up.

Will NOT happen again!

I learned at the ENT doctor yesterday that I Have TMJ (temporomandibular joint syndrose)

Finally a answer but, Not much I can do about it.

If you ever need to have your hearing checked, I highly recommend Gramham hearing in Van Buren,Ar.

He is easy to talk too. And he really cares! He loves his job!

He was a big blessing for me.

He seems to know just when to say the right words.

I wrote him a letter today and thanked him. Told him he was a blessing for me to meet.

The right words, said at the wrong time are use-less!

But, the right words, at the right time, CAN change your world!

Picture is Abbi at the Janet Huckabee center she loves that place.

She makes me proud! I love that girl.

You ever want to know something about God or the bible she's full of answers! :)

I'm going to go finish setting up my bed. Good night!

3-25-2010

I had the Most wonderful thing happen to me today!
I was at the ENT doctor today.
This little girl around 4 years old walked in with her mom.
She had a nasty nose(I got her some tissue) and she was coughing.
I told her,I was so sorry she didn't feel good.
She came over to me and just laid her head in my lap.
This child, did not even know me.
She just wanted to be loved and I did. I run my figures thru her hair. For a few minutes and pulled her close to me.
It wasn't long maybe 3 minutes top. But, she made my day!
The love of a child
No money can buy that!
She just wanted to know someone cared. That she didn't feel good,
I said a silent prayer for her and Thanked God for the opportunity!

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3-24-2010

Well, The week is half-way over.

Rain is moving in for tomorrow. I hear the bed calling me!(it's not even 6:30pm)

I told you I'd give you Jamie's poem. (I forgot yesterday)

Our son passed away 12-08-2009.But,You have to understand the way Jamie thought.

He was a big teddy Bear. Always just wanted to fit in. But, he was different.He seen people, I could not see. They talked to him.

Doctors said he was bi-polar with depression of someone, whom had been in war.

He did have his GED and went to Job Corp. and got a degree for culinary arts He could really cook when he wanted too.!

He also won an award for the friendlist people in school.Jamie never judged anyone. If I said something about one of his friends,he would get onto me. Even If I tell him he shouldn't hang out with people like them. He would defend everyone.

Anyway, Jamie talks to me alot. I hear his voice alot. And now sometimes he even tells me I don't think like that anymore Mom!
Some nights I even dream he is little and I am playing with him outside.

Two weeks after he passed away, he kept telling me a poem.Finally I got some paper and wrote it down. It touched my Heart so much. He could not have given me anything better.

I share this with you now.



No more crying

No more pain

No more miserable nights in the rain

No more sadness

No more Shame

No more shadows

No more pain

No more voices

No more wondering,why things never worked out my way

No more thinking, Now I KNOW

I was Loved more than I had Known!

3-23-2010

Today was beauiful! Sunshine,cool breeze!
I went and got some pansies for grandmas Pots and the end of side walk.
Got me a new bird feeder. Got it filled and hanged.
Work was kind of quite today.
Lap band update..Still sick from Chicken and dumplings for Sunday.
Mostly just drinking chicken noodle soup juice.
But, My stomach did quit hurting today!
Hot tea does help ALOT!
Thinking...Can I go fishing ?
I took my camera outside today.
Heres some pictures.
The dog ( Shadow) He thinks he owns me.
I'm here for him. He 8 years old. He is a good bubby.

03-22-10

Today was a great day!
The snow is gone,spring is in the air!
Gods be talking to me all-day..I love it when he hangs around.
I showed Kathy my poem Jamie had gave me today.
It so amazing how life turns out.
God kept telling me today. It won't be long.None of this is going to matter.
Just stay with me.
My special pray for today goes for Dub and Leona (older couple we know)
She just got out of the hospital.
I went to visit them before I went to work.
Somethings going on there.I just don't know what?

As being a friend or family member of mine. You have to deal with all the thoughts I have in my head. I'm pretty good at reading between the lines. Even lines that are not always said out loud.
I walk into a room. Even though I am usually the quite you. I hear ever thing.
I feed off peoples feelings.
If the feeling is bad or Mad. I try to change it of them.
I always try to get to know people. Give them a chance!
I have learn people treat me different than they treat other people.
But, sometimes...you get those that no matter what...You just have to walk away.
I left one of my best friends Last year. We shopped together fished,hanged out, played games as a families.
She got hooked on pain killers and went down hill from there.I tried for many years..Thinking she will be okay.The sad truth is now.The only people that hangs around her is the ones that are also doing drugs. Plus she has lost her husband.
When I am in town sometimes I think..Wonder what she is up too?
Truth is I don't really want to know anymore. I have confronted her many times over the years about the problem she has.But,it falls on her deaf ears.
I turn her over to God now...And walk away!

Changing Subject:
After yesterdays Mistake with the dumpling...Taste buds are no longer in charge.
I was able to eat oatmeal for breakfast..Lunch- grilled shrimp and Dinner a can Chicken noodle soup! Lots for Water and hot tea...Trying to clean these dumplings out! ( Will not happen again)
Good-nite!

I'll give you Jamies poem tomorrow

Well, I pulled a good one today.
I was boiling chicken so I could make a chicken casserole for supper.
I got to smelling it and thought...Chicken and Dumplings would taste good.
Warning!! To anyone that has had the Lap Band Surgy.
Dumplings is NOT a good idea.
I just took a little chicken and made me a small sauce pan of chicken and Dumpling
Ate about a cup full..
Tasted Good going down!
No need to say....I will not be eating again till tomorrow sometime.
After, I ate it...I realized...WHAT WAS I THINKING!
I know better than this.
So I been cleaning house doing laundry and getting ready for Monday.
I am really surprised I didn't puck!
That was at noon..it's almost seven now..Just drinking water!
I could not believe it snowed so much. Hopefully last was the last of old man winter for awhile.
I seen Big fat Robins (Birds) Hiding under my truck today. Waiting for food. They looked like they where full of eggs.
Hummingbirds should be showing up soon!
My uncle Bobby was in a car wreak...They say he is doing better!
Extra prayers for uncle Bobby,Aunt Peggy(back Pain),Friend Amy,(just getting old) very weak!
Braxton (virus), Julie (sinus infection,And that she can get her on place soon),

And Happy Birthday to my Little brother Johnny!
My God Bless You where ever you are this birthday!

Another week GONE!

Another week of wishing the week-end would get here! I work all week..Sleep all week-end!

I need to get a life.

All these things other women do...These never been my cup of tea.

Tea! That sounds good. Be right back!

The reason for me starting this is I am bored of face Book.

I think, it may have been, just something I needed to keep me busy to get over the death of Jamie. Our son, One and only..No grand children..No future plans! Big question mark over my HEAD!(?)

Whats next?

Life has changed. As I have know it.

I'm not sad!

I love my son, with all my heart! But, I would not wish him back to this world for nothing!

I know where he is...He is happy..No pain.. No Shame.. (future Story)